It's Supernatural

Sid: My guest by way of telephone is Jennifer and Jonatan Toledo, heads of Global Childrens Movement in Foley, Alabama. Jennifer had an encounter with the Lord, it was vision, if you could call it a vision. She was caught up into heaven and she went into a very very small room which Jesus called “The Weeping Room.” In which He could see and hear the cries of everyone on earth all at the same time, every single act of injustice on planet earth. Jennifer said she could see the compassion that Jesus had, how it affected Him. Jennifer how did it affect you?

Jennifer: Well I as well was completely undone, and just began to weep and weep. Pretty soon my heart was just so full of the emotions of God it actually really began to transform my life this encounter.

Sid: Did this happen more than one time?

Jennifer: Yeah it did. Actually there was multiple times where I would see myself in the weeping room. Actually from this place after this encounter the Lord invited me to actually to move to Africa and to begin to live with the poor and to begin to truly experience it. That was how the Lord had me walk this out. My heart really began to be gripped with compassion.

Sid: In other words, after you had this experience you got the major call up to now in your life.

Jennifer: Yes.

Sid: That’s very interesting. Then you talked about another room, this sounds like… I have to be candid with you I want the compassion of God, but that does not sound like a great experience that you had. I like the idea of this strategy room, explain what the strategy room was again.

Jennifer: Okay. When I was in the weeping room I saw another door that led out.  First of all, I want you just too really understand that first when I was in the intimacy chamber I never left that place of intimacy. See the weeping room was just a deeper level of intimacy. From that place, which I believe is true friendship with God you know because in that place of intimacy it feels good for us and all that, but coming into that place of weeping, that place of friendship with God where we truly as friends begin to care about what He cares about. From that place there’s another room, and that is the strategy room. In the strategy room I could see like blueprints, and maps, and just everything that was necessary for revival on the earth for the Kingdom of God coming. This is the great room, this is the room all the Christians are looking for, I mean that’s what we want; we want God’s kingdom, we want to see the manifestation of the His kingdom the earth. I thought “We need the strategy in this room.” I knew there was an abundance of everything needed in that place. I just began to say “Lord I want to go in there.” Actually it was quite comical what the Lord said to me.

Sid: What’s that?

Jennifer: He said “Jennifer you’re too fat you don’t fit through the door.”  [Laughing] At first I was offended and I thought “What are you saying to me Lord!” I just didn’t understand then I realized. You see we really are too fat, there’s too much of our self.

Sid: You just have to be an American Christian to be too fat.

Jennifer: Exactly! [Laughing] So what I did was I said “Okay Lord you know then help me to loose myself, help me to become smaller.” I understood as we spent time in “The Weeping Room” that we get smaller. God wants us to spend time in that place…

Sid: Now what do you mean by we get smaller?

Jennifer: What happens is, when we spend time looking and thinking, and meditating, and letting ourselves feel the emotions of God. When we become more consumed what His needs are, what He feels over what we want in our own life, pretty soon it’s like your own agenda doesn’t matter anymore. Your own money, your own comforts, your rights, your selfishness, it’s like little by little they get stripped away. Because when you see how beautiful He is, when you see… when you begin to feel and experience His emotions our petty selfish things really just aren’t important anymore. They begin to be stripped away, and the Lord desires to strip those things away from us because those are the things that hinder love in our life. Those are the things that hold us back from all that He is. So I began a process in my life and actually in the natural I had to walk this out for a year and a half. Whereas I would pray I would continue to see myself in “The Weeping Room” but I couldn’t go into the strategy room yet. I could see myself getting smaller and smaller. My selfishness, my own ideas of how ministry should be, or how life should be, or how things should happen, and God began to just strip me of those things because I begin to come more and more consumed with His desires. In that place, you know, I just was so… even at first “The Weeping Room” was such a hard place to be, it became a place I loved. It was a place I truly had communion with the Lord, where I felt like a friend of God, or I could share in what break His heart, or I could share in His emotions. You know while I was in there I had another encounter, this is a year and a half later.

Sid: Was this the point where you were small enough to enter the strategy room?

Jennifer: Yes, and what happened… I believe it’s a lifetime of stripping because every day we have to come back to that place of choosing to die to our self. I believe that this is a picture not for myself but for the church, there’s a real indication… what happened was I was in a meeting, I received prayer, I wasn’t even thinking about “The Weeping Room” quite honestly I mean this is a year and a half later. The conference had nothing to do with any of this, but all of a sudden I went into another encounter with the Lord. Right before me I saw what looked like an open vision. I just saw a door swing open, and I was just consumed with the fear of the Lord. In fact, so much so that I was laying on the ground and I could not move my body. Now this has never happened to me, I’m not one who typically has physical manifestations with the presence of the Holy Spirit. I was so consumed with the fear of the Lord I was stuck to the ground and couldn’t move. My body just felt like it was a million pounds, and I saw this huge door swing open and I heard the Lord speak and He said “It’s time. Welcome to the strategy room.” When He said those words it was like thunder going through my bones. I mean I don’t even know how to explain it other than I was just…

Sid: Jeremiah says “There was fire in His bones.”

Jennifer: Yeah, that’s much how His voice sounded. I knew the Lord was inviting me in, but actually it was interesting because a year and a half earlier I had been so eager to get into that place. When the Lord invited me in I just began to weep and I said “God I don’t want to leave this room. I don’t want to leave the weeping room I love being here with you.” You see God had truly changed my heart where the most precious thing to me was now to truly be with Jesus, it wasn’t just for the strategy. I could see just the change in my own response, and the Lord said “I want you to come in.” He walked me in to the strategy, there was so much in this room that I didn’t at this point didn’t have full revelation of everything that was in there. What I did see in front of me was a table and 2 chairs, and the Lord came and He sat me in one chair and sat across from me in the other chair. On either side of the table were these huge angels, these huge spiritual beings and they were holding these little wooden… looked like little vials, little vases. The Lord took my hand and He put a ring He put His ring, His signet ring on my finger. He said “I’m anointing you with authority.” I understood that it’s because of Him, His identity, His ring, His name that we have authority. Then He kind of pointed to these angels and they began to pour oil all over my head and I could feel, in the natural, I could feel it dripping down my body. He said “Now I’m anointing you with power.” He got up and He came behind me, He put His hand on me and I understood that when we truly understand I identity in who we are in Him, that releases authority which releases power. It was like a commissioning into the strategy room. I believe that the strategy room door of heaven truly is open for all of us, but there is a process, there is a process of how we get there. It starts with intimacy, you can’t… there is nowhere else to go if you don’t have intimacy. From that place of intimacy we’re invited deeper into His heart, into true friendship where we’re more consumed with His desires than our own. From that place He entrusts us into this amazing room called the strategy room. Sid I had an encounter one time where as I was in the strategy room I begin to come so grieved because I realized that in generations past there had been people who had gone into the strategy room of heaven before, and at one time they had the compassion, you of the Lord from the weeping room, but as they begin to get that strategy they begin to use it to build their own kingdom. I just could feel the grieving heart of God over that because the very reason He put the weeping room in front of the strategy room I believe as a picture for me to see was because every time He releases divine strategy on us He wants us to go first through that place of weeping. Where we truly carry His desires for His kingdom so it’s not about us, it’s not about selfish gain, it’s not about building our own ministry, or our own name, or whatever. When I felt the grief of the Lord over this I asked Him, I just said “Lord I don’t ever want to be one who uses Your strategy for my own kingdom. Please would you brand my heart with compassion?” As I was saying this I was just kneeling before the Lord and I saw His hand come out and He stuck His hand on my chest and it was quite amazing because in the natural I could feel my entire chest burning with fire. I looked down and in the spirit I could see across my chest was the word compassion. It was branded into my skin, you know it was in my vision, but it was so amazing I just said “God never let me be one who departs from this compassion.” Because that’s the key, compassion is the key that unlocks that strategy door, that’s what gets us in there. When we are truly consumed with His heart that He can trust us with strategy and I believe it’s absolutely urgently the hour that God longs to release His kingdom strategy…

Sid: Jennifer if not now when?

Jennifer: Exactly.